出轨狂想曲

这是什么样的一种心情？
做了一个非常奇怪的梦，梦里“心痒痒”的主角尽然出现，而且还是一个非常意想不到的剧情。是日有所思，夜有所梦吗？我自己也搞不清楚。这个梦境如果成真，后果可能是一发不可收拾。难道这是我潜意识的希望？

Bought a little gift and card for dad on Father's day. Think i wrote something quite touching inside the card. Hopefully it's "flowery" enough to show off my standard, though i always thot dad is always better in Chinese than me, as he's chinese-educated.

Wanted to get the pipa duck at Ghim Moh for mum and dad today, But it was sold out when we get there. Have to thank dear dear for driving me here and there to get a roasted duck.......but ...Lance Lance hurt it's rim white it hit the kerb....poor Lance. Dear Dear also heart pain........

Spoken some angry and "spiky" words infront of dear dear yesterday, But it reflected my feelings well enough. I am not perfect, and i certainly dun require him to be perfect, But there are little things that he can work on that can contribute in maintaining the relationship.

Trade-in my flute today....it has been with me for 3.5 years. Can't bear to let it go....but...i need a better quality flute. This Yamaha six series professional flute cos four thousand plus......wah...........Hope i can do well for my flute exam on August. Gambatte!

还是会寂寞

Been A very very long time ago......

Feeling lonely again......

Having dear dear by my side is a good enough thing for me, just that i can't help feeling lonely. I hardly go out with my friends, except douz. And every sunday i still have to eat go his house for dinner. SOmetimes even Saturday. He's not as romantic as when we first started. Yes, our honeymoon period is over.

And today, over the financial consultant thing, something i am not the least interested. He kept rattling on, while i just knod my head. All this while, he still never improve as a good listener. Will he ever sit down and listen attentively to what i say?

I actually like the good old days when i was with my guitar friends, talking and laughing over dinner. But.......it's all gone......

男人是自私的

11月9日2007年

度过了一个很不愉快的一周年纪念日。
在一起一年之后，什么都变了，他自然会要求你“体谅”还有“了解”他。他却从未试着体谅和了解我。

自信满满地以为他会准时赴约，可是还是让我失望了。吃完之后就急急忙忙冲去会朋友，根本没有问我想在这个特别的日子去哪里庆祝。那天的脸色是灰灰的，怎么开心得起来？

隔天不让他抽烟，他就生气了，说我那晚在他朋友面前“脸臭臭”。他在我朋友面前也是这样的，那我是不是也应该把他臭骂一顿？

我从来没有要他每个星期去见我的朋友，而我却要每个星期见他的朋友。我发现自己没有自己的朋友，我感觉很寂寞。他的朋友绝对不是我可以谈心倾诉的人。而我就和我那班朋友的距离越来越远。

男人好自私，又或许我比较适合单身生活。真的不喜欢喝汤，真的不喜欢每个星期花钱看不喜欢看的戏。

一个人孤孤单单，也许也是一种幸福......

School Holidays

Been so long.........i finally have time to slowly recall my password...kekeke....:P finally back in my blog again.
one week's time will be me and dear dear's one year anniversary....(cheers! :D )
Been a happy Sleepy Cat Bear all this while.........

Sleepy bear still sleepy....

Have not been writing anything since 2007....keke......
Been a happy bear all these while with my ah beng.......
but definitely not happy in school. :(
Miss my sec one students last year......esp my F1/1 students......hope they are all doing fine.

23 Mar 2007, Friday.
Ended my Genus annual concert. The only interesting item for me is the EXPO songs.......and especially when i can use my flute and blow 菊花台.
Another big event to look forward will be the competition in Germany in June.


30 Mar 2007, Friday.
First time we gonna be apart for 3 days.......wow....seemed liked 3 years...... :S

Pan Pan has been in my house since Monday, Pan Pan miss Lance Lance.

Happy Boxing Day!

Christmas Eve:
Had a great Christmas Eve......went Bugis with my ah beng to use up his capitaland voucher. (oops....i thot i say i wun call him that liao) kekekeke........ We had our dinner at Mos burger, According to him, that's where sec school kids will go. But we already no longer sec school kids wor...... Our next destination is T2. We exchanged our present in the car....... :D Thot there will be lesser people, and ended up queing about 30 mins for Swensens.....Next desination, Mt Fabor Juke Box. Saw the bubble Snow at 12am, then we took the cable car. Wah....been ages since i last took cable car. :P

Christmas Day:
Stayed at home all day...slacking....doing nothing. Been going out almost everyday. And finally a day at home. Mum was Happy. :) HAd dinner with mum and dad. A warm Christmas dinner.

Boxing Day:
Planned to go School. But atlas.......raining cats and dogs......no chice lor, stayed at home .....practise a bit of flute and guitar. Sleepy day...cos it was a rainy day.

Rainy Beary day, Sleepy bear, lazy bear, feeling sleepy all day. Bf bear, naughty bear sms sleepy bear, asked if mama bear is ok. Bf bear not happy cos never see sleepy bear. Little bear practise guitar in the end, never sleep. kekekeke...beary beary day....

It's been a mth

Been a month since my last post.
Been a busy month, doing piano accompaniment. My greatest challenge is coming up. The ATCL for Jason. Been practising very ahrd, but still not meeting the standard. Getting quite stressed up le......sob sob.

Didn't really msn much recently. And now find msn a lonely place. Dog, panda, RJ hardly talk to me. Even SJ, now having exam, also hardly see him online le.

Went to Yunsheng's ROM today. Wah......first time seeing the solemnization. hehehehe..........I think mine will be a better planned one....kekekeke........

Ah beng is not so ah beng afterall. I better not call him ah beng le. hehehehe. First time i ever buy earrings for a guy wor......oops..........:P